Fucked up week eh? Yeah.

Dropped my army handphone. Same situation with my n73, the lcd screen crack. All phones down. Now i can only call and receive calls, that's all. I can't even see the sms. Will change a phone after i ord.

32 days to ord. I thought i can start to put down things and relax, but it never happens. Things just got busier and busier. This type of tempo always happen in camp, one situation after another. Never ending.

Did i lost myself through the busy work i engage into? I don't know. I felt nothing when i knew i will be going on leave and to enjoy some camp conducted by NTU. I felt nothing when i knew i going to university. So perhaps answer is a yes. Maybe when the dates draw nearer, i'll know.

My temper has been hot again and it simply makes my blood boils when i think about the same batch of colleagues in my camp. My colleagues, those nsf who were my batch were starting to play bastard here and there. I found myself doing the most work among all of them, slogging like a pig while they are sleeping like a pig in the bunk.

Being assigned duty has make me think so much to the extend that i start to compare and gei gao like this. Why? Cause I saw that most people who really did work kena most of the duties. What about slackers? Their names isn't up in the list.

Just would like to remind readers that my saturday is precious, especially the night wushu training. A few more training and i have to enter the competition. The only time i really get guidance is that sat night. What's worse, after the assign duty, i actually had to attend the NTU camp in the evening of the same day itself, so I won't feel perked up at all as i will be tired. What a spoiler.

Being kind, being good isn't a good thing after all. People take advantage and you lose out. this time round, i lost my integrity to pettiness, and jealousy. From now on, i'm only take care of my own things and things assign by my superiors to me. The slacker needs my help, he have to show me whether he's worthy of it. He is not worthy, forget it.

Learn to be assertive to show that you are not a sick cat.

That's what i come out with. Being a softie is no good. No good.

Well, after the major events of the month, I will hand over my duties properly, and act as their advisers. As to any other shit i have been ask to help out with, it's not my tai ji.

Whatever it is, I should sleep early, and wake up to a brand new morning tomorrow, throwing away all this nonsense to the past, and embrace the weekend.