Wushu training, 1 week before NS

Hoo boy...time flies...6 days to NS...

Today, JL ask me whether want to go Guan Yin Miao, which is situated in Bugis, to pray and "chou qian", get divination, i say ok. AL book out for awhile today but went home to sleep so he didn't come with us. He's booking in at 7pm today.

Near bugis, i sms ask JL where is he. He replied:"i very sianz...not going liao." My reply was: "Whatthe fuck? Thought just now we confirm liao." Talk about the reply, I was being too nasty. Was having a headache at that time. Perhaps it's the strong perfume smell worn by some ladies around me, which always gives me headache and giddy spells.

Seems like JL kinda forgot about my confirmation and rush down to bugis. Well, while waiting, I spent the time walking around bugis, wonder when will i be that free to roam places like bugis when i'm in NS.

When JL reached bugis, we went to pray, and then to get divination lots. The divination lots, oddly had to be burned. Maybe should ask why. Is it a secret? Perhaps. So anyway, i wouldn't say much on it... just that i pick a good one.

Went back to AMK to eat, then wushu. Had vegetarian chicken rice again...zzz...Well, after i'm in NS, the chicken rice to me, will taste damn good, macham like the food for emperor.

Haiz, gotta miss wushu. My passion is there...but who knows it'll change after i experience NS. Starting to understand how AL felt back 3 months ago, when he's gonna enlist soon.

So far, have started a bit on "xiao mei hua quan", "jiu huan da dao", need to improve "mei hua kun tang shuang dao", "mei hua kun" and "da peng quan". Shifu didn't teach new moves, maybe he's using the tactic of luring me back to wushu, when i book out, if i have the passion to learn more.

Before training had chat with Minyee, Keith, JL. Odd though, i was more of like prefer chatting than training. Lol. While talking...the name Cheryl occasionally pops out. Lol... And JL kinda pronounce it as Shearer, or around there, which reminds me of an English soccer player who played/used to played for Newcastle FC. After that, got shishu to help interpret the divination lot i picked. Then got "kicked in the butt" to start the training...=D

During the front part of the training, i still train fine, focusing on my quan, focusing on teaching and leading. Somehow, in the middle part of the training, when i wanna practice shuang dao, i felt strengthless, i felt sianz, i felt my passion gone...the heat of the passion isn't there. Must be pre-NS stress or whatsoever.

So went about talking again...

After that, Minyee, Keith and Sheila went home. Train a bit of "jiu huan da dao". Only when i started training, I gain back a bit of passion. But it seems like when i was alone, especially doing nothing but having the time to daydream, i start to think of NS, and then the sianz word will be written on my face. Just now go home, also like that, show that sianz face. For these few days while waiting to be enlist, better make sure i'm packed with activities, doing all those thinking is no good and only makes one worry.

Shishu told me, whenever the training in NS is tough, think about the training i have underwent during wushu, the quans we did, are equally tough too, and we are still able to finish it.

It also seems to imply the philosophy of mind over body. Like while practising shuang dao, my passion is gone, i felt sianz, thus, i can't concentrate well on shuang dao, and can't apply the strength, stamina, the vigour which i originally have while training.

I think all who are present at wushu training, can see my sianz face. JL, Minyee, Keith, Sheila, Raymond shi xiong. Shifu, Shishus...

Now...they will be seeing, whether will I come back on 21st Oct, shifu and shishus say come back. And the rest will, i guess pulled me back if i kinda got lazy...Hopefully, I won't disappoint them. For AL, perhaps he might be coming back soon...late this year or early next year, or perhaps a change of heart...

So, what will i be doing next week at this time? Sleeping? Trying to sleep? Think about what will i be doing in wushu if i can attend? Talk cock with bunk-mates? Think of papa & mama? Think of my bolster? Think of my toilet bowl? Think of Cheryl? Who knows? But i'll be better off sleeping...the next day gonna be a busy day...zzz

For now, my mindset and heart says, 21st Oct, my 1st book-out, I wanna come back to wushu...Whether it changes over the past 2 weeks in Tekong, I got no guarantees.

One more thing, I kinda hated it when i was psycho not to go wushu( when i wanted to go)...by my friends. Erm...mindset for now as well. Don't know whether it changes when i book out...

JL, starting to worry about him. Lately, he hasn't been himself, and have a quick change of mood. Most likely is that Ting Ting factor... Damn...he even ask me and raymond shi xiong to help him buy a can/bottle of beer, which we refused. Was actually wondering, has he kena depression? Will try to let his close friends know about this...

P.S...Thanks Minyee, for trying your best to take a snapshot of Cheryl...lol... and sorry, blog wasn't finish by 1.30am...=D